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Feeling: AnnoyedHi world, this is gonna be a rant. As the title suggests, it's a rant about being skinny. Yes yes, what's so bad about being skinny right? Just read on and you'd know. And by the way I thought about it quite some time before I wrote this post because I was scared that people might hate me, but hey I am only speaking what I feel.
Disclaimer:
This post is about ME and what I feel. I'm not gonna purposely be sensitive to anyone's feelings. Also, I'm not being arrogant or proud that I'm skinny. It's just a body type. If you think I'm being arrogant then please blame society and not me because it's society that embrace skinny people.
Also, I'm not talking about anyone in particular, it's just what I've experienced as a whole throughout my 21 years of life.
Here goes.
I really hate it when people tell me "Oh my god!! You're so skinny!" (in the disgusted tone) Well what was I supposed to reply? Obviously I know I'm skinny - I've known it since I was 4 years old when people look at my ribs and say it's like a guitar (HAHA quite funny). I knew it since I was 6 years old when EVERY single family gathering my relatives hold my wrist in disgust and tell me that I'm too skinny. I knew it since I was 7 when the health promotion board people ask me if my mum feeds me. (have to say now I've gained a lot more weight than when I was young. Last time I looked like a malnourished african kid, but that's not the point)
Was I supposed to reply "Oh thanks for the reminder." or "Oh okay." or maybe "Okay I'm sorry my skinny-ness offended you." when someone tells me I'm OMG-so-damn-skinny? I really don't understand!!
And amazingly most of the time the conversation goes like this:
Person: OMG you're so skinny!
Me: *laughs cause I dont know what to reply*
Person: You should seriously eat more!!!!
Oh and do you think that I myself do not know that I need to eat more and gain weight? Oh but wait a minute, how well do YOU know ME and my diet to judge that I need to eat more? Please talk to my hand unless you can eat more than me.
It's funny because no one goes to a fat or big-boned person and tell her that she's OMG SO FAT or OMG SO BIG SIZED. Why? Because it's insensitive and rude. You're supposed to go to naturally bigger people and tell them that you admire them for eating healthy and not conforming to societal norms. (Think Adele) But why in the world does no one think that saying (in disgust!) that a naturally skinny person is OMG SO SKINNY is extremely rude as well?
Anorexia is bad and has been gaining attention due to the media's inaccurate portrayal of beauty. Because of this spotlight on anorexia, starving yourself in order to achieve the standard of beauty that the society demands is frowned upon and discouraged.
BUT BEING SKINNY IS DIFFERENT FROM ANOREXIA.Get it, humans?
I am born skinny. I did not starve myself to be skinny. I do not purposely eat lesser to maintain my weight. I eat like a normal human. And if you know me well enough you should know that I (sometimes) eat more than a normal girl. Why is it that people can just comment that I am really skinny, I need to eat more, I am very disgusting cause I'm so skinny? Do you think I would not be hurt? Just because I am skinny, I deserve being looked upon as disgusting, and I should suck it up because I have it easier than heavier people?
Just like any other girl, heavy skinny fat thin curvy bony ugly beautiful, everyone has their insecurities. If you see a girl with so many pimples do you purposely tell her that she has a lot of pimples and it's damn disgusting? You do not! If a meaty girl wears a tighter dress and feel insecure that her fats are showing, do you encourage her even though it might not look that flattering? Yes! Then why do skinny people have to take all the blame and all the hurt? Did you think I wouldn't be insecure that my bone is jutting out when I'm wearing that dress and it looks ugly? Or that my shoulder blades look extremely obvious in that top and I look malnourished? Did you have to PURPOSELY mention it to me so I feel more insecure than I already am, or did you think since I am skinny, therefore I am conceited and I should be reminded that I'm
skinny (in a disgusted tone).
I really do not understand, because most of the time I feel that people comment about my weight/body type just because they have nothing better to say, or that by saying I am extremely skinny and disgusting it makes them feel better about themselves. And it's not like I purposely say that I'm fat, so that people can say I'm skinny and make myself feel good. I'm not so shallow and idiotic! Then what's the point, really? To make me feel bad?
Here's a big SUCK IT UP!!!! to you.
Labels: Me, Thoughts
