Of Being Skinny

♥ Wednesday, April 04, 2012 at 6:53 PM

Listening: -
Feeling: Annoyed

Hi world, this is gonna be a rant. As the title suggests, it's a rant about being skinny. Yes yes, what's so bad about being skinny right? Just read on and you'd know. And by the way I thought about it quite some time before I wrote this post because I was scared that people might hate me, but hey I am only speaking what I feel.

Disclaimer:
This post is about ME and what I feel. I'm not gonna purposely be sensitive to anyone's feelings. Also, I'm not being arrogant or proud that I'm skinny. It's just a body type. If you think I'm being arrogant then please blame society and not me because it's society that embrace skinny people.
Also, I'm not talking about anyone in particular, it's just what I've experienced as a whole throughout my 21 years of life.

Here goes.

I really hate it when people tell me "Oh my god!! You're so skinny!" (in the disgusted tone) Well what was I supposed to reply? Obviously I know I'm skinny - I've known it since I was 4 years old when people look at my ribs and say it's like a guitar (HAHA quite funny). I knew it since I was 6 years old when EVERY single family gathering my relatives hold my wrist in disgust and tell me that I'm too skinny. I knew it since I was 7 when the health promotion board people ask me if my mum feeds me. (have to say now I've gained a lot more weight than when I was young. Last time I looked like a malnourished african kid, but that's not the point)

Was I supposed to reply "Oh thanks for the reminder." or "Oh okay." or maybe "Okay I'm sorry my skinny-ness offended you." when someone tells me I'm OMG-so-damn-skinny? I really don't understand!!

And amazingly most of the time the conversation goes like this:
Person: OMG you're so skinny!
Me: *laughs cause I dont know what to reply*
Person: You should seriously eat more!!!!

Oh and do you think that I myself do not know that I need to eat more and gain weight? Oh but wait a minute, how well do YOU know ME and my diet to judge that I need to eat more? Please talk to my hand unless you can eat more than me.

It's funny because no one goes to a fat or big-boned person and tell her that she's OMG SO FAT or OMG SO BIG SIZED. Why? Because it's insensitive and rude. You're supposed to go to naturally bigger people and tell them that you admire them for eating healthy and not conforming to societal norms. (Think Adele) But why in the world does no one think that saying (in disgust!) that a naturally skinny person is OMG SO SKINNY is extremely rude as well?

Anorexia is bad and has been gaining attention due to the media's inaccurate portrayal of beauty. Because of this spotlight on anorexia, starving yourself in order to achieve the standard of beauty that the society demands is frowned upon and discouraged. BUT BEING SKINNY IS DIFFERENT FROM ANOREXIA.

Get it, humans?

I am born skinny. I did not starve myself to be skinny. I do not purposely eat lesser to maintain my weight. I eat like a normal human. And if you know me well enough you should know that I (sometimes) eat more than a normal girl. Why is it that people can just comment that I am really skinny, I need to eat more, I am very disgusting cause I'm so skinny? Do you think I would not be hurt? Just because I am skinny, I deserve being looked upon as disgusting, and I should suck it up because I have it easier than heavier people?

Just like any other girl, heavy skinny fat thin curvy bony ugly beautiful, everyone has their insecurities. If you see a girl with so many pimples do you purposely tell her that she has a lot of pimples and it's damn disgusting? You do not! If a meaty girl wears a tighter dress and feel insecure that her fats are showing, do you encourage her even though it might not look that flattering? Yes! Then why do skinny people have to take all the blame and all the hurt? Did you think I wouldn't be insecure that my bone is jutting out when I'm wearing that dress and it looks ugly? Or that my shoulder blades look extremely obvious in that top and I look malnourished? Did you have to PURPOSELY mention it to me so I feel more insecure than I already am, or did you think since I am skinny, therefore I am conceited and I should be reminded that I'm skinny (in a disgusted tone).

I really do not understand, because most of the time I feel that people comment about my weight/body type just because they have nothing better to say, or that by saying I am extremely skinny and disgusting it makes them feel better about themselves. And it's not like I purposely say that I'm fat, so that people can say I'm skinny and make myself feel good. I'm not so shallow and idiotic! Then what's the point, really? To make me feel bad?

Here's a big SUCK IT UP!!!! to you.

Labels: Me, Thoughts

Of Nonsense

♥ Sunday, December 14, 2008 at 10:27 PM

Feeling: LAZY
Listening: Love Story - Taylor Swift

Well.
I mentioned that we'd be meeting to study right. But ARGH. In the morning it was raining and so we decided to not meet. HAHAHAHAHA. It's all my bed's fault. Now I feel like doing some work but my notes are all blank. :( Shouldn't have skipped the lectures.

Tomorrow... Will be another stay home day. I will be drawing and making my 2009 organiser. Teeheee. Excited!
Tuesday I'd be going for 2e6's BBQ. I hope I can get some shopping done before that. Yes yes shopping again.

Gonna get my markers from Rachel on Wednesday. And then I will draw on some shirts. Also... MUST start work on Wednesday. It's a promise to myself man!!!

Anyway I slacked at home the whole day today. The weather was super nice to sleep in and I woke up only at 3.30pm. Teehee. Decided to pack my cupboard! I realise I have a shitload of clothes. And also, I love prints.




(I think my zebra is very artistically drawn. LOLOLOL)

I also have stars... 2 or 3 pieces. (1 missing. :'( Super sad)
And also butterflies. LOL. 1 only. Skulls too! And polka dots!
And many many black and white clothes.

Okay. That's all for today. What a retarded post. I'm seriously bored. Seriously tired (slept too much). Seriously want to do some work because I feel damn guilty. Okay. I feel like drawing now. I have some inspiration. Bye I am going to draw. :D

Lastly, some photos I took just now because I was so damn bored packing the clothes.


♥ Love my fedora.
And seriously lastly...


Seriously fugly spider. Read more about it here.

Bye noobs!

Labels: Me, Photography, Photos

Of Shopping, Shoes, Watches and Cosplay

♥ Saturday, December 13, 2008 at 10:38 PM

Feeling: Peaceful
Listening: The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script

Met up with Camilia today cause we were too damn bored. Went to the Salvation Army to see if there's any nice vintage loots to pick up but it was disappointing. After that we went to a cosplay event at Expo for a little while. It's to open up my noob eyes. LOL says Camy.


Kawaiiiiiii!!! That's a little girl cosplaying as Nell from Bleach (see the circle). Super cute right!!!!! OMG.



Some random cosplayers. Camilia's friends apparently. LOL she got friends all around.


Camilia and I! ♥


Also I bought a pair of super cheap and comfy sneakers. OMG how much I love it. Shall wear it to school. :D:D:D:D Happy like don't know what okay finally I've found this design + comfortable + cheap (YES san ba spirit) + I like!!!! :D:D:D HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Anyway we parted ways after that cause I had something on (which was cancelled later). I was also supposed to meet up with Hongkun and guys for a little PAE gathering. It was cancelled too due to poor response. So instead I went shopping at Tampines Mall and Century Square alone.

:D

There's this beauty in shopping alone. I can't explain it but it feels GOOD. Yeah like you're a single entity and not part of a pair or a group. You walk where you want to, without thinking of where your friend or whoever wants to go. You don't follow anybody, and nobody's following you.

You take note of things you don't usually notice. You hear things, people, conversations. You take as long as you want in any shop, without the need to rush, nor wait.

This is not the first time I'm shopping alone but it's the most significant since other times I only shop like less than an hour alone.

To commemorate my shopping alone, I bought a watch for myself. :D:D


Cute right? ;)

Tahaha. Tahaha. Teehee. Shall go shopping alone sometime soon.
Anyway I just realise that I cannot go out without buying something. It's like a disease or an illness. It's like slowly killing my wallet lah okay. Angry! With myself!

Okay lastly, a bigass self portrait. Haven't posted such a big picture of me alone for a very long time already.


Pro right? Alone also can take self portrait in the toilet. LOLOLOL.

Shall start doing my holiday stuff now that I finally bought some pens. :D I'm experiencing high inertia... and to start myself, I asked Blanche and the bimbs out to do homework tmr! Teehee. They'll do their homework while I finally get down to copying the notes from the lectures I missed.

To Do List:
- Copy my notes
- Finish my homework
- Draw a T-shirt
- Wash my canvas shoe
- Trace my previous design again
- Bake cookies?
- Prepare for picnic
- Get Hilma's birthday present
- Get Faz's present too
- Tracee's birthday!

Holidays gonna be over soon. How time flies. I hate long holidays because I hate the feeling of it coming to an end. -_- I don't hate going to school. I just hate what is going to happen in school next year. A levels, anyone?
Bye. :D

Labels: Girlfriends, Me, Photos, Shopping

Me

♥ Sunday, April 06, 2008 at 9:14 PM

Written on: April 6, 2009

It's a new year, new beginnings, and most of all, a new About Me since I believed I've changed.

I sorta live in my happy little bubble that's really colorful like some of my drawings. But the thing about living in a bubble is that one day it'd pop and you'd be snapped right back to reality. That's what I feel right now - I've been daydreaming and having so much fun that now I can't imagine studying. I can't imagine doing anything productive.

I love Photography. It's amazing how a picture can convey so much emotions. I like taking pictures of my friends or people that I know or see around. I want to capture all the worthy moments in my life. (I strongly believe that a picture speak a thousand words, but it doesn't speak a thousand truths though. Hahahhaa nice quote right)

I am kinda oblivious to my surroundings sometimes and I like to stone. I like to stay back and slack around in school, walking around with people I like. I like to eat. I like to watch soccer. But it sucks that there's not much opportunities left anymore. And I think Meridian Soccer Team is the only soccer team that I watch and support. LOLOLOL.

I like to drink bubble tea. I like to eat doughnuts. I love sashimi. I love pasta. I love good food. I spend a good amount of my money on food. $_$

I like to make new friends. I like to smile at people (even though sometimes I'm quite oblivious to my surroundings). I hate it when people stare at me. I love all 3 Orientations I attended. I love the Photog camp. I love being an OGL.

I love watching dramas. I love Gossip Girl. I get excited when I find fellow Gossip Girl fans! But as much as I love Blair Waldorf, I think I'd choose to become Jenny Humphrey if given a choice. Lazy to explain why.

I am addicted to facebook.

After so long, I still want a big house with nice playroom and garden and slides and big kitchen and oven. I wanna be a stay-home mum and I want to be the coolest mum on the block. I wanna bake cool brownies and cookies and distribute it to my kids' friends and I wanna be my children's best friend. I want a charming and handsome husband and charming and handsome and pretty kids!!

Sometimes I wonder why I study so hard.

And I am nice.

About Me as of November 3, 2008

Labels: Me, Pinned

Me!

♥ Thursday, October 11, 2007 at 11:14 PM

Last Updated: November 3, 2008

Why am I writing this? Simple... cause I am bored. :D

I think I am a funny person. Funny only when you know me though. Funny only when I want to be. I am pretty boring when I am with people I don't really know. And I don't like to make small talks because they're awkward and I don't like it. I am not easy to talk to, unless you know me well.

I am irritating and I find joy in disturbing people. I like being sarcastic and I like making stupid jokes that leave people telling me "Not funny" (I have such mean friends). I like to laugh, and I like to make stupid faces. I like to act cool but gravity loves me and I always end up tripping over things. I always drop things and I always misplace things.

I like kids. They're so cute and their innocence is so loveable. I will name my children Arene and Benzene. No it's not an overdose from Chemistry. It's just that I think it sounds cool with the -ene and it's A and B. My 3rd child will be named C__ene. Charlene? :D

I don't trust easily. I don't open up easily. I share secrets only with a few closed and privileged (HAHA) ones. I am interested in gossips but I don't really care if you don't tell me. I am shy too, even though I don't usually look it.

I like guys that play sports, even though I can't play it. I like funny and charming guys. And I think the easiest way for a guy to attract a girl is to look at her in the eye intensely. A guy have to stay mysterious too. That's sexy. Hehe.

I like taking the bus alone. I like walking around alone. I like to bath. I like to listen to music and stone. It's great opportunity to clear my mind and think through things, or just waste my life away. I like to people watch. I like to be emo occasionally. I like to stay at home. I think there's an otaku in me. ;D

I love my family. We might not be the prettiest or the richest, and we might not have the best past or background, but I still think my family members are beautiful. I might not be proud of what happened but it's because of certain events in the past that has groomed me to what I am today.

I love my girlfriends. Even though there might be hiccups and hurdles in the middle of our journey, we've been through so much and we're still going strong as ever, even after graduating for so long. I'm proud of us. I also love how we are so true to each other. I don't keep any secrets from them can you believe it. :D And they know all my crushes and eyecandies and even my cup size.

I love my friends. I love everyone that I have been blessed with, every single person. 

I love taking pictures, and I will continue taking them because I want to capture the moments in my life. Because what are memories? Your brain lies and forgets. Memories fade. Photos are the best testaments, don't you think?

I love to draw. But somehow I can't draw happy things and most things I draw are emo and scary? I like coloring too. Haha. I like to draw eyes but I can only draw the right eye. Somehow it looks really weird when I fill in the left eye. I drew my shoes as well and I am proud of it. ;)

I love singing. I don't sing very well but I love it. I sing to most songs and I can remember lyrics really well.  I listen to all sorts of songs. Fast, slow, rock, pop, indie, alternative rock, classical,...etc. As long as they're pleasant, I'm game. Oh I love singing duets. ♥ And I can't dance.

I love taking walks. And I love sleeping. I love stoning and slacking. In short, I love everything that doesn't involve too much brainpower and energy. The thing I like to do that requires the most energy will most probably be shopping. I am lazy and I hate running. I can't play sports. Does this make me unappealing? Haha I don't really care if I appeal to you anyway.

I love drinking bubble tea, love eating, love ranting (to Kenneth), love watching dramas, love Japan (just some parts of it. Not the hentai parts btw), love Yamapi. Love Chuck Bass too! He's really sexy.

I love dressing inappropriately. When they say Singaporeans underdress, they probably meant me. I have only 2 pairs of shoes. School canvas shoes and sandals. I don't wear anything that bites me, not even if they look nice. I can pair my dress with a pair of sandals. And if you tell me they don't match, I don't really care.

There's many things I don't like, and I complain a lot. I hate vegetables, hate waiting for things/people (even though I am always late), hate selfish people, hate mean people, hate people that stare at me like I owe them a million dollars, hate smelly people, hate seating with strangers on buses, hate having to stand on public transport, hate ants and insects, hate Project Work.

The greatest regret in my life is giving up piano when I haven't even reach a single grade. It's a long story that involves the music school owing (this is a funny looking word) us money when the teacher went for a leave and never came back. I therefore conclude that I have no musical talents whatsoever. I know how to play the angklung though. HAHA. And I used to play the erhu... for less than a year before I quit. Oh I'm such a quitter.

My greatest dream is to drive a lamborghini along a super long stretch of road that belongs to me. I want to open a farm in New Zealand. I want to lie on a field and gaze at the star-studded sky with my loved one.

In my dreamhouse I'd have a big kitchen and oven. There'll be a giant playroom with toys, and I will have a beautiful room. There'll be kids running around. I'd be a mother that my children will be proud of. I'd bake nice cookies and pies and muffins. I'd work from home because I want to be there for my kids.

I'm serious. Never knew there's a motherly instinct in me. Life is amazing.

I am also a hopeful romantic.  ;)

What a long post. :D

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Ambigram of my name!

♥ Saturday, April 07, 2007 at 10:52 PM

Yay! I made an ambigram of my name. I rock man.



I prefer the white one though. It's so lovely! I'm so lovely. HAHA. I know the huge watermark is ugly.. But I don't want other Sharons to steal my hardwork you know. Haha.



And you better tag because you know I'm cool! NYAHAHA.

13 days to chalet.
20 days to Mid-year.
And I'm here lazing around.
Great. 0=D

Labels: Fun Stuffs, Graphics, Me

Unsweetened 16 - Part IV

♥ Sunday, January 28, 2007 at 12:39 AM

I simply LOVE my new phone! It rocks!
And we have this Part IV brought to you by Insanity! Heh. Thanks darlings!

Before posting the pictures of the presents, I'll tell everyone something - Xiurong and I went to study today!



And also Xiurong looks like Yan Ya Lun, me and Eunice think. (Please don't kill me, Xiurong)



Okay, I received presents from Xiurong, Brother Mao, Yun, Mr Anon 2, Eunice and Teri. (Mr Anon 2 cause.. s/he don't wish to be named.. HAHAHAHHAA)







Bacteria : If you open the dish thingy, the bacteria would be released and you'll fall sick. It's rearing bacteria! And Ah-mao gave it to me cause he didn't know how to get rid of it. -__- So I gave him back as his Lunar Birthday present!

Sketchbook : It's a really cool sketchbook, with a picture illustrated on some pages. It's like if you turn the book, it's a different story. (Like the first one, you thought it's a stream of water but it's actually hair, and no pun intended, assholes)

Stripey shirt : I love that shirt!! It's a gift from Ahyun and Mr Anon 2. Saw it on an online site and intended to buy it.. didn't expect Ahyun to buy it for me! But she told me right from the beginning.. no surprise leh! Hahahahhaa.

That's all! Thanks girlies and guylies! And very big thank you to that Ahrong's brother Ahmao.

And before I go, I gotta tell everyone...
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I'm a part-time ghost!

Labels: Birthdays, Girlfriends, Me, Photos

Unsweetened 16 - Part III

♥ Saturday, January 27, 2007 at 12:24 AM

I just got my birthday present from my mum (again!), Mr Anon. (not named to protect his identity) and my Jiujiu (uncle)!!

It's a K800i!! Thanks Mummy, Mr Anon. and uncle! I really love it!

And Happy Birthday to Xiuqi the meanie and Hupsong! Play a harp (hup), sing a song!

Labels: Birthdays, Me

Unsweetened 16 - Part II

♥ Thursday, January 25, 2007 at 8:57 PM

Pictures!


Cute right? Thanks Ms Chia! Hahaha.




23rd - went to eat with Papa and sibs. And then cut cake with Mummy and Aunt at home, with uncle snapping pics.

24th - went to eat Katong laksa with my girls at a stupid place.

And, before I go, there's really something Xiurong and I need to tell everybody...

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Our STEADY!

(looks weird, but who cares? And I know I'm short, but can lie on his chest mah! HAHAHAHA.)

Don't be jealous lah, kay?

Labels: Birthdays, Me

Unsweetened 16 - Part I

♥ Tuesday, January 23, 2007 at 11:01 PM

2006 Resolutions

1. Get better results - Fulfilled
   - Comparing my Endyear 2005 results with my Endyear 2006 results, I say I improved! Isn't that great? So one off the list!


2. Curse lesser - Fulfilled
   - Judging from my entries, I think I've improved a lot too! At least the blog is now very friendly for kiddos like my stupid sister.


3. Concentrate in class - Fulfilled
   - I used to SMS, draw, sleep, ...etc in class and now I don't! I'm a goodie goodie okay! So of course it's fulfilled!


4. Pass Maths - Fulfilled
   - Yay! I passed Maths! From D7 to A1! *dances* I think this is the proudest thing I've ever achieved in Year 2006. Thank you Mr Ng!


5. Be less BHB - Unfulfilled
   - It's just me. It's fun to praise yourself when other people think otherwise, isn't it?!?! Yea! So I won't include this in my 2007 resolutions. -___-

2007 Resolutions

1. Get better grades, improve on results dramatically. Score DAMN well on O Levels!


2. Be nicer and more patient with my family.


3. Save more, spend less.


4. Contribute more to the class - it's the graduating year, and I love my class!!


5. Exercise more.. hahaha


6. Keep my study table and bookshelves neat and tidy


7. Not to be late for school!!!

It's been 31 536 000 seconds, from being a 15 year old girl to a 16 year old not-a-girl-not-yet-a-woman!! I feel more matured - from my previous entries.

Yea, thanks to these people, my 2006 had been a fabulous year. The usual family members, Mummy, Ahma, Brother, Meimei, Daddy, Ahgong, Ahyi, Da Jiu and my Jiujiu. <3333

Xiurong, Teri, Eunice, Yun, Camilia, my girlies! Insanity! The shopping trips, chalets, movie marathons...etc had been lovely! And also to Amelia for being such a great friend! Nu Zhi Li! (nice name eh!)

And to people like Royston, Kenneth, Qiaofeng, the Bird, Chingkiat (and maybe Xiuqi.. hahaha) and blah blah. Wasn't on good terms with the first three in Sec 2, but I can safely call them good friends now. And for Birdie (oops!) and CK, we've been great friends since Sec 1! It's all cool and steady. And I don't know whether to call that guy that's 4 days younger than me a friend or a foe. Hahahaha.

A thank you to everybody, everybody. The entire class, and aiya, everybody la, for the well wishes, and thanks to Q(F+Y) for the birthday present that I'll be receiving. And to Ms Chia for the cute bun! I'll post the pictures tomorrow! Hahaha.

More to come tomorrow. There's A-Maths tomorrow and I'm gonna do some revision or I'll fail. Pictures (cake, bun, and all) tomorrow! Stay tuned!

Happy Unsweetened 16, Sharon!

Thank you.

Labels: Birthdays, Me